Today, I was home alone with my brother. I was making jelly on crackers for myself. He was sitting on the chair silently watching me. All of the sudden I was in such deep thought with myself that I forgot he was there. It just amazed me when I came back to my senses. I have alot to think of. I really do. I am lost in thought so much. It's pretty bazzar. I have come to know this year a lot. I have realized things that I never thought about before. Most about life and God and how he works and just tons of understanding. Life is just... difficult sometimes. To even think about . Trust me... I would know.